Whoa, now I’m officially 28 years old! The other day I was just a 27 years old girl who has lots of things in my to-do-list, lots of interests! And 3 more birthdays, I will be out of the 31 calendar numbers, then my age will belong to the group of lotto numbers which is up to 55. And what’s next? Ah, the the bingo numbers! My age will be in the range of it if I reached age 56 because it’s up to 75. Ouch! I can hear the word “OLD” echoes on my ears everytime I think about my age! I’m getting older and older.
I don’t care about the idea of looking old or getting wrinkles as I age, we’ll all get it eventually. Time flies so fast! I fear it might not be enough for me to complete my to-do-list because I’m a little old-ish to start. But yeah, they say it’s never too late, I get it. I have so many aspirations and interests that I’m passionate of, can I multi-task without stressing myself out when one of the things I’m doing messed up? And the distractions? I believe I can!
I have a birthday phobia
But hey, there’s something crazy I’m doing every 23rd of November! I can’t exactly recall when was the last time I get together with my friends to celebrate my birthday. And once again, I did it on my 28th birthday! I locked up myself in my house that day, I didn’t go out to see people and friends. I just want to be alone. It’s so crazy but I don’t want to celebrate my birthday for some reason (I’m uncomfortable to talk about it). But I hope a day will come for me to have the courage to move on and celebrate my very special day.
Locking up myself won’t be bad if all my computers are working just fine. But geez, my little one was giving me hard times! I need it that day, but all of a sudden, it won’t turn on, all the control keys are not working! My other one was fine but that’s not what I need. I fell asleep sulking about it! And I still see a computer even in my dream. Obsessed, eh? You know what I’m seeing? A widescreen one! I’m so glad that my mini laptop is working fine again. Maybe it just took a little break from being overused, hehe.. 🙂 I thought it wouldn’t turn on anymore, thanks God, it just did! Overjoyed, woohoooo!!!! I hugged it like crazy!
Speaking of computers, I’ve planned to build my own since I was in college and it’s still in my to-do-list. I actually have spent some money on Hello Kitty accessories for the computer but no money goes to any single part of the motherboard. 🙂 Plan, plan, plan.. Haha 🙂 So I guess I have to start building one by 2015. I’m picturing it in my mind, wow, wow, wow! My heart is beating so fast with the thoughts of a widescreen and a powerful computer plus Hello KItty!
My birthday thoughts on a self-gift
Okay, no birthday celebration, period! But I don’t want to be too harsh to myself so I think of a little favor that I really want to do. It’s a thing that’s on top of my to-do-list— to web design. I’m on my way there though I’m still in the learning curves. I believe this is the best gift I can give to myself right now which I’ll be thankful of one day. In right time, I hope I can proudly show the world what I’ve built. And today is the day I started to reach for it. Yeah, good, Jhem, always think positive! 🙂
My bestfriend had effortlessly made me smile when she sent me a birthday message and asked me to make a birthday wish, I replied quickly and said, “I’d like to win the lottery jackpot tomorrow!”. I told her once that I’m going to buy her a luxury car— if I win the jackpot hahaha.. 🙂 I bet I just returned the smile favor by giving her my impossible wish. How will I win if I don’t buy lottery tickets? In my dreams.. haha 🙂
I really appreciate the greetings from those lovely people who sent me their sweet little birthday thoughts for me, I feel loved. I’m also touched by a Skype video message sent by Anima. Ah, she’s so sweet! I remember I met her on G+ community. Thanks for the love, lovely friends!